One of the hardest things I have had to deal with in my life is grief. When you lose someone, living or deceased, there is this void in your heart that feels like it cannot be filled. Friends and family have left my life, and I always find myself asking the question: "Why? Why them? A why me?" Obviously there's nobody who can answer that question for me. We will never know. It's just a part of life that we have to accept. People leave, pass away, or even just stop answering your texts.
The one thing I have learned from my losses is that grief is a feeling that takes over. Everyone grieves in their own way- no one can tell you how to grieve. And do not let anyone tell you otherwise. It's a natural reaction to loss, and it demands to be felt. Don't ever run from it. Feel it and let yourself do it however feels right. Some people can bounce back quickly, while others cannot. I discovered that I'm one of those who cannot. But I let myself feel the pain and deal with it in my own way. I mourn, write, and eat lots of chocolate and nobody can tell me that's wrong. Accepting is the hardest part for me, and it takes time. I will be forever grieving some losses, and maybe others will get easier over time.
For anyone reading this, if you experienced loss, allow yourself to feel it. Do not suppress any emotion because down the road it will hit you. And maybe even harder than it would initially.
I miss you Nana. I miss you Kelcey. I miss you Bindi. And I miss you too little Fraidy Cat.
Til next time,