I haven't posted in a while because I have been working a tremendous amount lately, but hey, got to do what I can to put coffee on the table.
My mind has been consumed with clothes and steak. I come home every night either thinking about jeans or covered butter. Trust me folks, it takes a long time to get rid of that stench. My dreams at night usually consist of work related things, and always end up with me making some stupid mistake and getting yelled at by customers. I wake up with relief knowing it didn't actually happen (yet).
Now besides the nightmares, recent debates, rogue clowns, and Halloween approaching, I realized something else pretty scary: I have done nothing in the past two weeks of what I truly love. I haven't kept up with submitting for auditions, preparing new materials, writing, or even reading books/plays. How am I going to keep growing as an artist if I keep putting that part of my life on hold?
I'll tell you why: money. I'm stuck in the mundane because I am desperately trying to play catch-up with my debt. I work seven days a week, and it is still not enough. Us millennials are being slapped in the face with debt and rejection. With or without a degree it is almost impossible to get/keep a steady job. Even with a college degree, I rarely hear of people getting jobs in their field. So many of the people I know had to go back home to live with their parents because, like me, they can't afford to pay rent.
Now the reason for my rant is not to get pity. It is just to show acknowledgement that this is happening- raise awareness ya know. If you are reading this and in the same boat, share this post. You are not alone. I am right here with you and you are in my prayers at night. To others reading this, thinking it isn't a big deal or there are bigger problems in the world, remember that everyone is entitled to their own form of struggle and pain- not really asking for sympathy, just some empathy over here.
So to sum this all this up:
"I know it's bad kid, I got your back kid." - B. Burnham
OH and PS: Now that it is getting cold, people are coming in for pants. School pants. THE SAGA NEVER ENDS. *shivers*
Til next time,